The world is still. Silence is all around me, covering me with despair. There Is absolutely no hope for me. Everywhere I go, I’m surrounded by the people who I fear the most. I try to get away from them, but they won’t leave me alone. Everywhere I go, they follow my every move. When I think that I’ve gotten away from all of the past, they come back into my most extreme nightmares which soon become real. There is no escape from it….maybe I should just disappear as well and become the silence that I have feared. Everyone will forget what I was, who I was, and no one will feel as alone as how I feel right now.
No, i’m not okay. My best friend won’t even talk to me for some odd unknown reason,everyone hates me, i have no friends anymore, and the girl who i’m friends with never thought she’d ever have a boyfriend and now she does, and i haven’t even hung out with a guy remotely close to callinga boyfriend…i can’t even remember. I hate my life.
I’m getting so stressed out right now i have so much work to do but can’t do any of it because i had work and school all day and i just want to sleep but i have to do my homework and then work again tomorrow and i still need to do a bunch of shit from prom and it’s just all really stressing me out
| me: | i hate all of you |
| me: | stop screaming you saw your friend yesterday |
| me: | holy fuck walk faster |
| me: | get smarter idiot |
| me: | maybe if i hit my head on my desk enough times i'll die |
I haven’t had a real boyfriend since August. I haven’t had pure sex since August. I haven’t been loved or loved anyone since August. I miss being a part of someone’s life and meaning the absolute world to them. I miss having someone to be able to cry to and to cuddle in their arms till I fall asleep. I wish I could have someone there for me , but then I resize that I am completely alone.
